abby's Journal

4:25AM

Your Dosha is Vata

Creative and restless, you take in all of life's pleasures (maybe a little too much!). You're quick witted and very talkative, but you also tend to have a spotty memory. You tend to get very into ideas, people, and lifestyles... but only for a short time. It's difficult to hold your attention, and you sometimes feel with what life has to offer. With friends: You are very uncomfortable in new situations or with new people In love: You fall in and out of love very easily To achieve more balance: Live in a warm climate and spend some quiet time in nature

11:35PM

good heavens! m out with mike kanina... he fetch me around 12:30 in the morning! then... i had a very wonderful day! m hopin' he'll text me juz to say that he wants to see me... parang kanina! i sneak out pa nga para lang makasama sya e!

*grins*

*grins*

*grins*

haaay... he inspires me! sana everyday m always like this!

12:30AM

amputa!

*curse*

*curse*

*curse*

when was the last time I uploaded a new entry?
anyway i can't remember when... *grins*
i got depress for almost like 6 months and now m gettin myself back to shape again... haha... ;p I found out that love can be addi"k"tus than cigar, beer, weeds and those sort of drugs dat kills! haha... nd m warnin' all of yah dat it could kill... it could hurt as much as a gunshot through your head... *grins*

anyway i think its better than bein' dead! I can start anew! ayt?
il stop bein' bitter...

to start it off...

I saw a few friends last saturday that i haven't been with for a long time and we all had a good laugh and good time... i can't help but smile... and say some things never changes... can't help but think "buti pa ang friends na dyan... d ba?"... wahaha... m d biggest fool of all... il start with the past continue with the present nd as what our history prof says: "history repeats itself"... aun ikkwento at ikukuwento ko ang aking mapait na nakaraan sa tinatawag nilang... pagibig...

*grins*

10:36PM

ei guys... miz you all!
wen r we goin out? it seems we have our own respective world na!

to crisse:
how r u? nd francis? regards na lang..

to ninna:
howz my dad? hehe.. gt a new 1?

to baby:
muzta school? enough abt the nightmares.. its pretty scary and a little morbid!

enweiz hope to see you all... soon!
take care nd have fun!

6:14PM

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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hehe...

6:41PM

Haaay... Vacation is finally over! Its time to face the reality.. STUDY STUDY STUDY! So far school has been good to me coz I passed the Physics and Algebra tests! Now Im dreading the list of Examinees who will be the future ATENIANS! actlly m not hoping that I will pass coz the test is really a pain in the assssss...
Enweiz Ms Sol said "your grades doesnt define you!" I agree! Who cares about that damn numbers?!

10:19PM

Happy New Year!!!

1:04AM - Mystery of Love

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body. Love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalties that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love, they feel the spirit of love leaving then try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accept the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they
try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways; they live in a sea of mystery.

You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time. Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life, Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who you deem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it in your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and will always be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for amoment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

9:45PM - Love sucks!

What's the difference between immateur love and mateur love?

Immature love said: Ilove you because i need you!
Mateur love said: I need you because i love you!

see the difference?

9:32PM - absence

The reason why I was absent today in school:

- I haven't taken enough sleep because last night I was so depressed about myself!
- My head aches!
- My heart aches!
- Everything aches! (just exaggerating)
- I'm not ready to go to school!

to sum it all up i'm not feeling well....

11:32PM - Stupeeeeeed!

Ei! Fwends! May bago na kong club! hehe.... LONELY HEARTS CLUB!
Nikits kasali ka don! hehe.. just kiddin!

Current mood: bored

12:26PM - Glimpse of my diary: Bitter-sweet memories!!!

APRIL 9
- I considered this day as my happiest and dumbest day of my teenage life!!! (I guess this is the end of my membership for being a single and wise! Hehe!) Happiest because I got a bf! (I was never a sucker for romance but this time I was!! I was totally shocked when I agreed to be his girlfriend!) It’s the dumbest day of my life because I didn't think it over! (Even though I was dumb this time I know that I'm serious and I'm willing to give up something for him! Is this the weird feeling of love? kac I was feeling a little side effects! hehe! It’s very unlikely me! I know that my friends will be shocked if they hear the NEWS!) After this day ends my BABY and I got to talk a bit. He told me that he wanted to have a family of his own and have a dozen of children! (hehe! too much! actually he wants 12 dozen! ung isa parang si TSIN-TSAN!)I was happy when I retire to my bed! (Actually I wasn't feeling sleepy pa! I was recalling the things that happened!) :p
APRIL 10
- I believe that when you wake up right then your day will turn out right! I was awaken by the call of my BABY!( I still have morning glory and I wasn't feeling HIGH! I think he's enough to wake my senses!) Everything turned out smoothly! He watched me while I played basketball with my playm8s and cheered for me! (Syempre I won!) After the game we got to talked a bit and then we had a little argument because the acetate of his fone is the pic of his ex-gf! sabi nya "mahal daw magpplit" I thought " baka MAHAL pa rin nya ung girl!" He also told me na "Ako lang ang gumagawa ng sarili kong PROBLEM!" After that na resolve ung conflict namin! I tried to understand him and then afterwards I just disregard it! My BABY and AJ left they need to settle somethings up! Then I saw JEREMIAH ROSALES (I'm dying to see my longtime CRUSH! pero i just kept quite!) Sabi ng sis ko nagtataksil daw ako! Pero to tell you the truth my heart didn't skip a beat pero I'm glad to see him! After that AJ and my baby returned and I wasn't expecting them! It's revelation time! My BABY told me that we have a problem! nakikipagblikan daw ung gf nya! Then I said: "Eh di balikan mo!" (As soon as I uttered those words I know that my heart is shattered into pieces kac I was willing to give up something! I was about to break into tears kaya lang I hold it back kac I don’t want him to see it!) He explained things clearly to me pero I got into my realization that he never really love me! I'm a fling! He still loves her gf very much! And it hurts to realize na things between us is over and I was dumped! He walked me home! I was planning to tell my friends and my sis that we broke up the following day kaya lang I need them! I burst into tears the moment I stepped in the roof of my house and then I told my sister everything! (Too much of being strong and a martyr maybe!) The good thing is that I never felt angry with him even though I was betrayed and dumped!
APRIL 11
- I was shocked and my eyes are a little sore! I haven’t slept! Still thinking about the break up!

* My heart aches! My ego hurts! I feel a little restless! I’m hoping that things didn’t happen to me! I felt stupid and used! Pero la na akong mgagawa! Mahal lang talaga nya ung girl!

Current mood: blank

Current music: One Last Cry

12:31AM - QUOTES!!!

oN d course of Lov,pipol muSt tEaCh der heart 2 bE brAvE --bRaVe enof 2 hOLd On wEn thingS gO wrOnG n bRavE Enof 2 Let gO wEn Dey rEaLizE dAt thingS R nOt meAnt 4 each OthEr.

I Lov u,u knOw y im tEllinG u dis sO dat 2mrow if i nvEr wAke up ive tOLd u dat i really do Lov u.

dont 4get Dat nOt every 1 undrstnds u,nOt every 1 cAreS 4 u,n nOt every1 luvs u.but wats d sense of me being here 4 u?2 do all dose things that not every1 can dO.

wen we Lov sum1 we never easily give up on dat person even if we gEt hurT bAdLy,wel find a wAy 2 EaSe d pAin n leaRn 2 undrstnd n 4give. (dats how lov works.

sum pipol say Dat wEn u R in Lov ,u must aLwayS HoLd hanDs. bUt wen its true Lov,u dOnt need 2 cAusE u jUst knOw dat d other Hand will alwAys be der.

wen u lov sum1 ,ull do crazy thingS u cAnt ExpLain. u`ll dEny D truth n BLieve in Lies.wen u Lov sum1,u sacrifice ,givE evrythng u`vE gOt n dOnt think twice ,u riSk it aLL nO matter wat.



never say gudbye wen u stil wAnt 2 try.....nEveR giVe uP Wen u sriL fiL u CaN tAke it.....nVer sAy u Dnt LoV dAt pErSon anymOre wEn u CaNt Let gO.

dont be surprise if 1 day ill Avoid u n b GonE.its nOt bcOz u`ve dOne sumthing wRong and i hate u, but BcOz im aFraid 2 LOv n be hurt again by sumbody who cant love me.